Last week, I found myself feeling anything but enough. After a couple of jam-packed weeks - exciting times in London, family festivities, and a huge festival in the sunshine, I started to feel like I was just about holding on by my fingernails to everything else that I'd put to the side in the meantime.
Work emails and 'urgent' shouting tasks stacking up, deadlines running late, dreams falling by the wayside, house a tip, kids and husband not getting enough attention, and definitely not enough mama-me-time in my schedule.
But instead of working into the night and ploughing on through the tasks as I usually would, I listened to that panic in my chest and I decided to stop. I ignored that critical 'you are not enough' voice in my head and went to bed early. Three nights in a row...
Because I realised that I could. Because I am enough, just as I am.
As much or as little as I am able to do in this moment.
And so are you.
Sometimes getting lots of stuff done is just a way to avoid that sense that we're somehow not enough. And just being, nurturing ourselves, is what we really need. There is no absolute 'balance' between fully living your life, and trying to do so much that you aren't really present. There is just the choice in the moment.
What needs to give? (something pretty much always needs to give...)
The washing pile or you? The work email or the child with something to tell you?
You choose the best you can do for each of those right now. And whatever you choose is enough.
So this month, we'd like to come together at #somum and remind each other of that truth.
We hope you'll come and join us in sharing an "I Am Enough" self-portrait.
We'll be on twitter, ttaking pictures and chatting about when and where we feel enough, and when we don't.
What makes you feel least like you are enough...?
Take a photo of yourself right there, holding a sign reminding us (and more importantly, yourself) that you are enough.
Share it with us on twitter with #somum and in our gallery over here.
If you want to give your photo a photo gallery frame, you can do that over at www.PicMonkey.com...
As you can see, I took my photo surrounded by my messy house, with a battered computer full of work emails balanced on my leg, and salty chocolate in my mouth. It's not very attractive...
And yes, I am still enough.
This month's activity was also inspired by The Good Enough Mums Club, a wonderful musical coming to London this month, reminding us all that we are good enough.
If you're in London in July, don't miss this musical!
What is a #somum Make Date?
It's a chance for mums to get together on twitter and tweet while we attempt to do something creative - like doodling, taking a photo, writing poetry, making stuff or even squidging plasticine.
We give ourselves some creative me-time and connect with other lovely mums. We do it every second Wednesday of the month and we would love you to join us. New friends are always very welcome.
You don't have to be a clever crafter, an artist or wordsmith. We're all about having a go regardless of talent or experience. Most of all, it's about getting together and having fun.
If you just want to chat, that's completely fine. If you just want to make something and lurk and never tell us you're there, that's fine too. We're just happy you're making time for you.
To join in, just search for #somum on twitter to follow the conversation and find out what we're trying to make this month. Then add #somum to your tweets to join the conversation.
We hope to see you there.
And whether you make it or not, you're enough.